February 2012
29 posts
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i'm not okay. i'm not okay. i'm not okay. i'm not...
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it's the easiest thing in the world to follow a...
41164) If you hate someone, you try to avoid or...
41213) I starve, binge, purge, abuse diet pills,...
asimpleseastar asked: <3
Anonymous asked: I just scrolled through your blog and found a message I sent that said 'inhale negativity, exhale optimism'. I meant to put 'inhale optimism, exhale negativity' - hold on to the good things and let the bad things go x
thoughtsdontend:
1000bodies:
there is a problem when your only plan for surviving life is eventually killing yourself
THIS.
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My dad just asked me if I always had to be so negative. Yes dad, I do. Because I’m about an inch away from throwing myself off the nearest cliff, so I apologise for seeming a little moody.
You’re sitting in your room ~ door locked ~ with a...
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Stuck in the middle.
Always stuck in the middle.
Between anorexia and bulimia.
Recovery and illness.
Depression and happiness.
Binging and starving.
I’m always stuck in the middle and I can’t get out. If I was JUST anorexic or JUST bulimic people might notice. People might help. People might care.
Or maybe not.
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i think i just realised i'm more sick than i...
i was going through my “ED box”, where I keep anything that has ever been related to my disorder. Food diaries, blades, pills, recovery inspiration, all sorts. I looked in it today, to put a new box of laxatives into it, and there were about 8 empty laxative boxes and 3 bottles of diuretics. It’s been exactly a year since i first used them, because it’s written in my...
January 2012
29 posts
Restoring_Hope: Contrary To Popular Belief, Eating... →
journeytoanewcreation:
Eating disorders are glamorous, you say? Eating disorders are glamorous? Hello. My name is Jerry and I’m 19 years old. I’ve had EDNOS since I was 13, and Bulimia since June 2010.
I’ve just spent money I don’t have on a bunch of food I used to enjoy eating. I didn’t taste it as I…
39578) Nobody cares or even notices when you have...
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idk what to do for PROM! D:
becuase everyone wears short dresses in our school but i hate short prom dresses. no offence, but it’s PROM. your supposed to look like a princess, not a slut. and i found my perfect prom dress, it’s long but not overly dressy, just very plain and beautiful. but what if nobody wears long? gradually more and more people are wearing long, like last year there was about 10-20 in the year, but what if...
Watching freaky eaters - this guy has only ever...
4653. It doesn't make sense, how you hurt yourself...
39052) Everything is out to get me.
confessionsabouteatingdisorders:
The mirror is distorted. The scales are lying. Nutrition facts are lying, too. The elliptical machines and treadmills at the gym are lying about how many calories I’m burning. People commenting on how good I look and how beautiful I am are all a part of this scheme. Everyone is lying. Nothing is true. I’m not losing anything except my mind.
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it's easier to say you're okay and fake a smile...
i don't know why i'm still here.
i really really don’t. i have nothing to do with my life, i fail at everything, i’m disgusting, i’m worthless. nobody would understand if i said i wanted to kill myself over such petty things though. nobody understands full stop. people pretend to understand or be empathetic, but they don’t get it.
why am i still alive? i need to just disappear.
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This weekend has been amazeballs ;)
Got through to the semi-finals of a talent competition, have the chance to win £700 and I get to record a few songs and stuff. Also got through to the final of a different one which is basically he same prizes! But honestly, I don’t even care about the prizes, I get to sing a son that I wrote mysel in front of 500+ people. Could it get any better?!
AND I found out I got a merit in my grade 7...
You don't understand
Cutting unless you’re a cutter.
Drugs unless you’ve done them.
Suicide unless you’ve attempted it.
Depression unless you’ve felt it.
Eating disorders unless you’ve had one.
Me unless you’ve been through what I’ve been through.
So don’t pretend like you fucking understand.
